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Changing.... [by smiles]

Fri, 9 Apr 2010 21:26:58 -0500

Facing the Fear:: Changing....
I decided to rewrite this after getting a better perspective on things...

After working from home over the past two years, my outlook and reaction to the world has definitely changed. The great benefit of being self employed is you get to make your own hours and manage your own time and are no longer under the thumb of some shortsited business owner. The independence is what I really love.

The major negative of working at home AND living at home is that you are ALWAYS there. I work as a web developer and build rarely have to meet clients in person... so basically I get very little interaction with people. After a while... you just get used to it and really become like a hermit. Going out becomes an event... even to the stoopid store. I would crave the human attention, but since I wasn't used to the day to day interaction, this irrational fear spawned.

It's actually hard to explain.

I think I was just looking for a smile or a friendly hello... some sort of simple friendly interaction. But since I had been home for so long, these simple day to day interactions spawned a nervousness. A fear I guess you could say... although that word really isn't specific enough.

I think I had earlier identified this as fear of other people's judgments, but really, I think it was just pure and simple shyness. I hadn't talked to anyone in person for so long, it honestly just made me nervous! Even short exchanges made me tense.

To say the least, it was freaking weird.

I luckily got a contract in Los Angeles this month and my friend let me crash at his place. That same "shyness" came with me, but thankfully quickly faded. They have lots of people over everyday, so I really got jumped back into usual human interactions quicklike. Plus my work is onsite for the client and I am working with a couple people too.

I'd like to tell myself it was something I did or something within myself that I changed... but I don't really know. I all I know is I feel like myself again and am glad to share that with the people around me.

I guess there's no real "lesson" learned for the happiest moment readers. Or any credit to give myself for "conquering" how I felt. I did put myself on a path of change. I think really, just that fact of putting myself in this situation gave me the opportunity to "step up".

And man am I glad I did =).

So here's to new experiences and new days ahead.

- Scott Brooks

What makes me weird?? [by smiles]

Fri, 9 Apr 2010 21:25:22 -0500

Revenge of the Nerds:: What makes me weird??
What makes you weird? We spend so much energy trying to fit in, how do you think you are different from everybody else? Is there any such thing as normal?

"Normal" is a relative term. Dictionary.com defines it as "Conforming with, adhering to, or constituting a norm, standard, pattern, level, or type;" If you see your viewpoint on the world - the way you do things, your likes/dislikes - as being the norm, then that is normal to you. Some base it on what the majority of the people they know do, or maybe what they see on TV or in the movies.

To me, if someone really believes in that term, then they haven't seen what the world really is and who the people are who live in it.

Personally I am always delighted to meet someone who is completely different from me. To me, their perspective on the world, their opinions, their experiences that shaped this person that they are today, are themselves a treasure trove of knowledge. Taking the time to understand who they are is almost like living another life... or as close to it as I will ever come.

So... what makes me weird or "abnormal"?

My TV watching habits are very "odd" to be sure. I am addicted to Cartoon network, and watch the news like a hawk (CNN mainly, but FOX always provides for some interesting entertainment, hehe). I don't watch all that much TV, but when I do it's usually one of those two.

I love to watch the Cartoon Network. It takes me back to my childhood and I love watching how much the writing has come along since my childhood days of Thundercats, GI Joe and others. Have you ever gone back and watch those? Man, the dialogue is hilariously simple. These days kids are getting so much more...

And the news, well, ever since I dove into the details of politics with the research for my movie I can't look away from the world stage. As powerless as I may be, I still HAVE TO KNOW what my leaders are doing and what the rest of the world does. Luckily, there are more places to get the news than just on TV. It's good for a nice 1hr block... but with the advent of the 24 news channels, shit just repeats and there's all sorts of annoying filler. Thank god for the net. =)

-Scott Brooks

Hurricane of LOVE [by cbrooks]

Fri, 4 Dec 2009 23:53:55 -0600

What is your Purpose?:: Hurricane of LOVE
I feel like a Hurricane at its moment of conception...alone in a vast ocean as two opposing winds kiss for the first time, bringing into existence my vortex. A vortex named Curtis, with power I am just beginning to understand. The winds swirl around me as my understanding grows and increase in velocity as I create my beliefs and spirituality. I am just beginning to realize my full potential and am preparing to unleash my full strength upon the shores of existence. But do not fear Hurricane Curtis, cause this is the First Hurricane you will want to be in! The Hurricane of LOVE ;)

A Brotherhood of Man. [by smiles]

Sun, 22 Nov 2009 22:38:38 -0600

Utopia:: A Brotherhood of Man.
What we want is nothing less than world peace and a true brotherhood of man. A world where being alive is all that is required to be worthy of love and respect. A world where our cultural differences, be they race, religion, or nationality, are celebrated and appreciated like the colors of the rainbow. We want a world where competition is replaced by cooperation, with all working for the common good. Yes we are idealists, and people may ignore our ideas. But, we will not back down and we will not give up because we have faith that living a life that holds compassion and love above all else will always result in the best possible outcome for ourselves and those whom we interact with everyday. To accomplish our goal requires many political, economical, and social changes. We are not politicians, businessmen, or activists. We are simple people with a simple idea. Love every single person that you meet. For these changes to be brought about it is necessary for each individual person to believe that such changes can happen. People need to believe that a world full of peace, love, and harmony can indeed exist before it ever will come to be. To achieve this ideal we must each understand that we are all a part of the miracle called life. Beyond this realization all else is irrelevant. We have found a way to spread this love and understanding very easily. All that is required is to share your happiness with someone else and so we created this website to spread the love. What is the happiest moment of you life? Think about it for as long as you need to and then come back and post your moment here on this site. Our deepest hope is that by sharing our most positive memories with one another that we can build the bonds of love that will lead to a world of equality and peace.

Feeling on Happiness [by cbrooks]

Sun, 22 Nov 2009 22:27:31 -0600

What is Happiness?:: Feeling on Happiness
Well I've noticed a trend on these myspace "about me" intros. About 90% of people say in one form or another "I want to have fun in life, I want to be happy". That is a beautiful concept but there are two things people need to realize:

First, how many times have we heard that on the TV? All over the media people are continuously saying this. "Live everyday to its fullest", "I just want to be happy", etc. Is this starting to seem like propaganda to anyone else? The media keeps us entertained and society is pushing for you to live life to the fullest. This results in two outcomes. We spend more money in our consumer-based economy, and we don't pay as much attention to what is happening around the world. Even the people in power who should be monitoring and controlling the government probably spend a lot of time being entertained themselves (like Bush going on vacations). Pretty much they have created this propaganda to control us. If we are too busy enjoying our lives, we won't have time to make sure the world is being run properly.

Secondly, society expresses happiness and enjoying life by participating in temporary happiness. Temporary happiness comes from movies, sports, drinking, comedy, drugs, good food, physical appearance, sex, parties, etc. This type of happiness is really just pleasure. Pleasure is not necessarily negative. However, pleasure hides true happiness from us. Pleasure keeps our minds occupied in its experience and in the search of it. Pleasure will never bring us true happiness, a happiness that will last forever and does not require any external stimulation to experience.

So, what is happiness? We cannot buy happiness, nor can we win it. Happiness is not a thought, nor can we learn it. So, what is happiness? Happiness is a FEELING; a feeling that we can choose to feel at any point. Happiness is a feeling which we all desire, which we desperately search externally of ourselves for. We search from others for acceptance, we search books for intelligence, and we search the world for ourselves. For many of us there is one constant, we are always searching. This search has no end, so stop searching. There is no need to search, simply feel.

Now clear your mind�Stop�Smile��.Breathe��.and breathe a few more times. Breathe until you feel relaxed. Now tell yourself one simple thing: "I LOVE myself and want to be happy!!!" Now realize one thing�......EVERYONE DESIRES HAPPINESS! This realization can change your outlook on the world around you. Hold this thought with you next time you are around people. You will view people in a new way.

Watch the faces of people; you will see their desire for happiness. Watch how someone is interacting with others, their actions revolve around happiness. We are all interacting with the world to create and find happiness around us. When someone laughs, they are creating happiness; when someone cries, they are sad because they lack happiness; and when someone gets angry, they are protecting happiness. We all want happiness; our souls all want happiness; our souls are the same. That is why we chose life, to experience happiness. We are all the same.

So say it again just a little differently: "I Love myself and everyone and we all want happiness!" Realize that this planet is one huge rotating mass desiring happiness. Now breathe again, relax, and keep this thought in your mind. Now feel this thought, feel the beauty of that thought. Feel our planet's desire for happiness as a warmth surrounding you, encompassing our planet. Let this thought bring a smile to your face, and with a smile breathe in through your nose. Now feel that warmth in the back of your neck and let that warmth spread�let it spread to your scalp, your eyes, your smile, your head� feel it move down you body to chest, heart, shoulders, arms, fingers� feel that warmth in your stomach, to your torso, your thighs your legs, your feet your toes� Feel that warmth inside of you. Feel that warmth getting stronger and feel the happiness that warmth brings. This feeling is what is true happiness.

Now when you roam this world always feel that warmth inside of you and let it radiate to the world around you. Feel your warmth warming others and watch your warmth affect them. Always remember to act in respect of others desire for happiness, and in turn their happiness will warm you. This is true happiness, this is our destiny, and this can change our world.

Like a Hurricane... [by cbrooks]

Sun, 22 Nov 2009 22:21:46 -0600

Transformation, from a Caterpillar to a Butterfly:: Like a Hurricane...
I feel like a Hurricane at its moment of conception...alone in a vast ocean as two opposing winds kiss for the first time, bringing into existence my vortex. A vortex named Curtis, with power I am just beginning to understand. The winds swirl around me as my understanding grows and increase in velocity as I create my beliefs and spirituality. I am just beginning to realize my full potential and am preparing to unleash my full strength upon the shores of existence. But do not fear Hurricane Curtis, cause this is the First Hurricane you will want to be in! The Hurricane of LOVE

Our Deepest Fear... [by cbrooks]

Sun, 22 Nov 2009 02:55:18 -0600

Facing the Fear:: Our Deepest Fear...
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world; there is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won�t feel insecure around you. We were all meant to shine as children do. It�s not just in some of us, it�s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same, as we are liberated from our own fear. Our presence automatically liberates others.

The Dream [by cbrooks]

Sun, 22 Nov 2009 02:50:38 -0600

Twin Flames:: The Dream
I sit here and contemplate what this means,
To lose the one that makes me beam.
With the hope that love is still alive,
And I will not lose if I try.
These last few months have made me see,
That in love I still do believe.
The thought of you not by my side,
Makes me frail and weak inside.
I don�t know if I can explain,
But missing you will cause so much pain.
I hope that one day that it can be,
Together like I want, just you and me.
This dream I know I can keep alive,
The dream I try to find with my heart�s eye.
Searching for hidden treasures that might lye,
In the warm cavern of your soul where I try to pry.

The Collective Human Conscious [by cbrooks]

Sat, 21 Nov 2009 19:42:32 -0600

Its a Beautiful World:: The Collective Human Conscious
I appreciate the period of time we live in. For all the centuries to live in, this may be the most exciting. With the advent of the World Wide Web, and all forms of global communication, the world is coalescing at a faster rate then ever before. The collective human conscious is finally getting an opportunity to experience its full self. For the last million years we were in our infancy. We have just begun realizing how to control all of our movements, and we are in our awkward teens. As we created our first languages, we began crawling. We began to walk as we discovered the Americas. And with the first global communication we began speaking. We are forever learning, and we are learning fast. And at times, we may seem unruly and out of control. We may feel we are not misbehaving, but we are; and we must learn from our mistakes, to continue to grow. The human race is destined to continue our growth, because we are all a part of God. And all parts of God will learn to evolve to emulate the creator. It is how the creator was created, and with that came our creation. These moments occurred at the exact moment, a timeless moment before time existed.

Today, as our ideas spread and our cultures merge, we are growing and evolving at an even faster pace then before. After Hiroshima, we had one of our first transformations. We realized the destructive power we wield. We stayed cautious, and learned to repress our anger through out the Cold War. But this repression only angered and frustrated us more. We attempted to drown this anger with an era of drugs, sex and rock n� roll. And thankfully the Middle East intervened. Their forceful interruptions only angered us, since our stubborn teenager attitude would not accept the advice of another. We lashed in anger, but after our temper cooled we realized the mistake we made. Today, we have begun the process of self forgiveness. A humble, yet exciting time. A time of recreation. A time when we are allowed to resolve our problems and reflect on our deeper meaning. We are continuing to learn. You can see it everywhere on the internet, with hundreds of thousands of web pages dedicated to a new way of thinking. The world�s spiritual enlightenment is expanding at an exponential rate. Even our media is growing a conscious.

This is what makes me truly appreciate the world we live in today. Our world seems filled with spirituality and we are learning to act on that spirituality and beliefs. We even elected a president, whose platform was based on change, showing our desire for something different. It may to be hard to agree on the specific change that needs to happen, but if I think the willingness to want change is a huge step for our culture and will lead to many other cultures wanting their own change. The collective human consciousness is finding its spirituality and this will create the greatest change of all time. The end is near, but it is only the end of our teens, and the start of the new age of Aquarius, of peace and love. We will learn to make this change; it�s only a matter of time.

Albert Einstein's - The World as I See It [by smiles]

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 17:56:38 -0600

Utopia:: Albert Einstein's - The World as I See It
"How strange is the lot of us mortals! Each of us is here for a brief sojourn; for what purpose he knows not, though he sometimes thinks he senses it. But without deeper reflection one knows from daily life that one exists for other people -- first of all for those upon whose smiles and well-being our own happiness is wholly dependent, and then for the many, unknown to us, to whose destinies we are bound by the ties of sympathy. A hundred times every day I remind myself that my inner and outer life are based on the labors of other men, living and dead, and that I must exert myself in order to give in the same measure as I have received and am still receiving...

"I have never looked upon ease and happiness as ends in themselves -- this critical basis I call the ideal of a pigsty. The ideals that have lighted my way, and time after time have given me new courage to face life cheerfully, have been Kindness, Beauty, and Truth. Without the sense of kinship with men of like mind, without the occupation with the objective world, the eternally unattainable in the field of art and scientific endeavors, life would have seemed empty to me. The trite objects of human efforts -- possessions, outward success, luxury -- have always seemed to me contemptible.

"My passionate sense of social justice and social responsibility has always contrasted oddly with my pronounced lack of need for direct contact with other human beings and human communities. I am truly a 'lone traveler' and have never belonged to my country, my home, my friends, or even my immediate family, with my whole heart; in the face of all these ties, I have never lost a sense of distance and a need for solitude..."
"My political ideal is democracy. Let every man be respected as an individual and no man idolized. It is an irony of fate that I myself have been the recipient of excessive admiration and reverence from my fellow-beings, through no fault, and no merit, of my own. The cause of this may well be the desire, unattainable for many, to understand the few ideas to which I have with my feeble powers attained through ceaseless struggle. I am quite aware that for any organization to reach its goals, one man must do the thinking and directing and generally bear the responsibility. But the led must not be coerced, they must be able to choose their leader. In my opinion, an autocratic system of coercion soon degenerates; force attracts men of low morality... The really valuable thing in the pageant of human life seems to me not the political state, but the creative, sentient individual, the personality; it alone creates the noble and the sublime, while the herd as such remains dull in thought and dull in feeling.

"This topic brings me to that worst outcrop of herd life, the military system, which I abhor... This plague-spot of civilization ought to be abolished with all possible speed. Heroism on command, senseless violence, and all the loathsome nonsense that goes by the name of patriotism -- how passionately I hate them!

"The most beautiful experience we can have is the mysterious. It is the fundamental emotion that stands at the cradle of true art and true science. Whoever does not know it and can no longer wonder, no longer marvel, is as good as dead, and his eyes are dimmed. It was the experience of mystery -- even if mixed with fear -- that engendered religion. A knowledge of the existence of something we cannot penetrate, our perceptions of the profoundest reason and the most radiant beauty, which only in their most primitive forms are accessible to our minds: it is this knowledge and this emotion that constitute true religiosity. In this sense, and only this sense, I am a deeply religious man... I am satisfied with the mystery of life's eternity and with a knowledge, a sense, of the marvelous structure of existence -- as well as the humble attempt to understand even a tiny portion of the Reason that manifests itself in nature."

Albert Einstein (signature)